So, yeah. Marlie now attends my college. Maybe we’ll sound pathetic, but it required way too much energy to tough out the next semester + two more years of being apart for so long. Now that she’s here, on campus (although not in my room or suite), I feel more like a whole person again. I feel like I can make it through a full day again. I feel really happy like I haven’t felt since high school where I saw her every day. That’s just how it should be, really.
It’s scary in a way. We’ve proved to ourselves that we’re miserable apart. We’ve proved that we can be apart, but that we absolutely don’t want to any cost ever again. Now the new question is, how do we swing this? We’re not lesbians (as has been stated over and over again and which I will continue to state). We’re straight, real girls who are interested in boys… it’s just that we’re kind of connected at the hip. That makes it difficult to get a boy all to oneself.
Is the only solution to find two guys who are like us? Because I don’t think that will ever happen. Even if there are two boys out there who are like us, I’m sure they’re having just as tough a time as we are and maybe tougher.
Society kills me. I wish it was somehow possible to remain as close to someone for as long as I have and not be considered weird or gay or anything at all. People try to classify others way too much.
I think this train of thought and my sudden awareness of how we’re considered ‘weird’ comes from my friend and room mate Elise. (Go back and see some former posts for the bio on her.)
Since Marlie’s on campus now, we see each other a lot, naturally. What else would you expect us to do? Her own room mate sucks (I’ll explain about that later.) so she comes over to my suite and sleeps over in my room sometimes. Elise is uncomfortable with this. I’ve tried to explain the relationship between Marlie and me, but she can’t quite get it.
Marlie usually sleeps on an air mattress that I snagged from my parents. Usually. Other times, we’re both sitting on my bed and talking late into the night and I lay down and just listen to her talk… and fall asleep. When I wake up a bit later, my glasses are off, my shoes have been removed, and I’m tucked into my bed with Marlie right next to me. It’s a very relaxing feeling knowing she’s right there. Not at all like the stress of last semester and the two semesters of freshman year before that.
The only problem is that it’s a single bed.
It’s a problem for Marlie and me because she kicks and wriggles in her sleep a lot and I wake up easily. That’s the only reason we don’t like to sleep together.
It’s a problem for Elise because, no matter how many times I tell her I like boys, she doesn’t really believe me.
Question: Have you ever been in a friendship/relationship/whatever where people are convinced that there is more going on than there is and you can’t convince them otherwise? What did you do to convince them? I’m curious to see if your answer can help me as well.
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